"Who am I" by Casting Crowns

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

This song speaks so loudly to me.  More often than not, I find myself lost in the lives of my family and friends and I forget that I even exist.  This song reminds me that not only do  I exist but that I am important and that Jesus loves me just as I am!!!
When I'm falling away, when I feel tossed by life's craziness, whenever I'm stressed or depressed or just plain tired, I know that I have a Savior that I can turn to.  One that loves me just as I am, not for what I've done, or even for what I will do.  He loves me!  Simply because.

Well,  I've been logged in for about an hour now. 

As is custom in this house (and it wouldn't surprise me if it's the same in yours), whenever Mom get's busy doing something that is when each and every person in the house needs her IMMEDIATE attention.  Now, don't get me wrong.  There are plenty of times when I'm called upon that the need is indeed URGENT, or at the very least seems that way to one of my children.  There are also times when even though I say, "It'll have to wait "I get sooooo tired of hearing the whining of "Moooo'ooom when can you help me with __________" that I finally, very reluctantly and more often than not, very LOUDLY push myself away from my task at hand, grumble more than a little and go and take care of "________"  

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Since I signed on, I believe I have been called away from this computer no less than 10 times for various and sundry reasons.  Some, I'll admit are of my own accord.  For example, after child #1 asked me "Mom, where is _____", I tell child #1 several places to check.  Shortly after, child #1 comes in saying..."It wasn't there".  So, me, being the easily frustrated Mommy that I am, I immediately jump up, go straight to where I said it would be and Voila! there it is!! 

Another example, child #2 comes in wanting ice cream for an afternoon snack.  Not wanting a mess to be made I begrudgingly get up, follow child #2 to the kitchen and right before I make it for child #2 I decide instead to let child #2 attempt the task themselves.  Since that went so well (truly it did) I go and unload the dishwasher.  Then I also decide to refill said dishwasher.  I spend about 5 minutes going from room to room collecting glasses from bedtime the night (or several nights) before. 

Now, I head back to the computer and pull the blog up again.  I hold my hands above the keyboard ready to bedazzle you all with words of wisdom, love and charm!  My thoughts are racing as I get ready to type that first sentence.  I'm poised for action forming the "greatest opening line ever!" when, not to be undone, child #3 comes down the hall yelling "Mooo'ooom, can I have _____" .  I freeze and say to myself , this isn't really happening, is it?!  Being the "kind, nurturing, and loving mom that I've come to be by this point I yell back.... "IF YOU WANT IT FIX IT YOURSELF!!!!"  Child #3 says," Okaaaay....so sorry I asked... " which immediately makes me feel about 2 inches tall.

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But, you know what.  These are my children, my flesh and blood, they can make me feel like a "Queen" or like "The Wicked Witch".  The love me unconditionally even though sometimes they shout "I Hate You!!" 

I know that God has entrusted me with their care for a reason.  I only hope that I can raise them to be responsible, loving, caring citizens.  But secretly, I can also hope that when they have children, they never get an uninterrupted train of thought again!  After all, it's great exercise for us parents.  Most of the time it's the ups and downs that allow us to use our "remember buttons" to help us finish whatever we were doing when we were first called away!!

So, in closing I want to say to Child #1, Child #2, and Child #3, I LOVE YOU!  I love you for who you are!  I love you for needing me!  I love being your mom and I wouldn't change a thing! 

Love,

Mom <3

Emily Rose turned Six!!!

The calm before the sugar rush!!!

Ready to blow out the candles

One happy little girl!!!

She got to wear a crown at school on her birthday :)

Emily turned six on 9/28/11